Motorcycle Accident PTSD-former athlete perspective
don’t know why, but this is the first time I’ve opened up(thankful for anonymity here)…don’t even know why. With all the incredible minds, and not just from accomplished Dr’s etc…just people who have lived it——I really hope to find direction. In 2005, I had opened a small fitness center..being an exercise physiologist, previously multi-style black belt, heavy-weight national bodybuilding sponsored athlete…..bla bla…. july 2005…—fast forward to sept 5th 2005, the day before my birthday…I close the club and as always with full gear, mount my 2003 954RR….great back road twisties and I hit sand..front end goes out, centrifugal force on my ass pushing down on the bike..science does the rest…. major subluxation of c-5 and c-6. “my spine made an S curve, so please don’t move sir-you have about 2mm’s til you lose your gamble with luck…and right now your winning”. about 2 human hairs he said…..im a normally very gregarious and outgoing guy…so, this scared me. 3 cracked ribs, badly bruised lung and a few weeks in traction on my back… after that accident and since then, I have found that I’ve only sporadically even wanted to workout, sold the bike of course?;). And put on some weight…. its like my damn zest and spunk just left.. gone. it’s ok sometimes, but mostly I have to do some mustering to work with my clients…… I’m a reasonably educated man, I’m also a guy who grew up with a single parent mom working 2-3 jobs simultaneously…so, I became street smart and that doesn’t leave… I know I have PTSD….i really need to know how to get out of it….like in the moment when I feel the need to “eat” to feel good…or "drink some bourbon "… I’m hoping that talking with others after the fact helps……its almost like everyone expected that once I was clear to work and out of my torso-neck brace..id be back to me, but I’m 46 now and I don’t think I been back to me at all.. advice please?
