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In a blink of an eye.

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In a blink of an eye.
by jennajayne23 on Oct 15, 2009, 09:19AM

I have no memory of this I’m going off my familys stories. On febuary 9th 2009 me and my brother woke up and got ready for school like anyother day right? Wrong. We got in my car. I had rained the night before and It was freezing out this morning. We can go two ways to school, both are the same distance. My brother wanted to go to the gas station so we went the way we don’t usually go. We didn’t make it to the gas station that morning. I was driving my dodge neon with my brother beside me when we went around (litterally already called “dead man’s corner” before I crashed on it) that corner. I was not txting, my phone was broke. I was completly sober with both hands on the wheel. I was on my way to school and was ganna be early. We collided with a snowplow on that corner that morning. The plow had a full load of sand also. I woke up in the first week of march in north memorial hospital. I had on two ankle casts, a neck brace, bars on my teeth, and hooked to many machines. I had severly broken my face, both ankles and cracked my neck. I was all put back together by the time I woke up. The thing I remeber before the accident is the night before I was freaking out because I had lost a big review for a big test I had on my accident day. I woke up with the thought of missing that test being the very least of my problems.. I missed half of my junior year in highschool along with many other things. I still have many dr. appointments that I atttend and have more surgeries to have. I’m now in my senior year of highschool with all the stress of my future and leftover stree from the accident. I came out very lucky, I look just like I used to. Still how could you call all the problems I have now lucky? I am so normal looking, you could never pick me out in a crowd which is good. I still can’t run with out pain. My mouth has felling only on the right side, it moves funny now and I’m missing a tooth. My neck is fine thankgod. I was a strong person before the accident and became 100 times stronger because of the accident. Sometimes I’m still not stong enough to handle the fear of deja voo whn I drive and the stress I have because of the accident. I’m only 17 and life is normaly hard at the time. I have that plus all of these accident problems. I’m usually good during the day, but nights arn’t usually as good.I hope someday I can put this all behind me and leave it all as a memory instead of reality..

#2
Reply: In a blink of an eye.
by OrangeTaz on Nov 01, 2009, 06:53AM

I know what you mean my wreck wasnt as bad,but was bad enough.When I drive since I was rear ended I always tense up and check cars behind me hoping they stop

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Reply: In a blink of an eye.
by escapeartist on Nov 22, 2009, 03:56AM

I am glad to hear that you are so strong. I wish my nightmares and flashbacks from the PTSD would go away and I have to let things out through my art. But we are so very lucky and still here for a reason and to help others along the way I do believe. May you have better days ahead. I work on mine but sometimes I stay inside a lot, then will have the courage to get to the campus and draw or paint or write. I have been in three different vehicles with different and safe drivers and been rear ended! And once, a car was coming up onto the interstate and hit my friends car on my passenger side and luckily it was the back door not my door that was hit. I start to feel like a cat sometimes. Bless you and stay strong. Escapeartist as i escape through my art

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Reply: In a blink of an eye.
by Mudpuddle on Nov 25, 2009, 01:40PM

I understand the dejavu thing when driving. For months after my accident recover I would feel every car, and every intersection was going to be an accident. Not as bad of feeling now but still think of it. Good luck on the rest of your recovery.