Mass Shooting Survivor
Hello, I’m new here and apologize if I have made an error using this system. On May 1, 2022 I was at work and was shot my a mass shooter. The gunman shot 12 people, everyone survived luckily. I took a bullet to the hip and broke my femur. Due to all the adrenaline and what was happening, I believed I was shot in the femoral artery and that my life was ending. I spent 25 days total between a regular hospital and a rehab hospital. I did months of physical therapy and I can now walk normally. However, I no longer feel comfortable in society and the world. I struggle to find purpose and meaning after such a dark event. I have considered suicide, I have pushed friends and family away. And I’m struggling to get back on track in my life. I’m doing therapy, taking medication, but nothing is working. The attention and the spotlight that was on me when the news broke back home (I was out of state for college) has also not helped and I am extremely nervous and uncomfortable when I see a former high school pal or someone I know around town. I struggle with nobody else understanding me. I struggle with searching for answers and only seeing one type of shooting talked about, a school shooting (obviously very horrible in itself, but my situation doesn’t quite match that.) most people that go through things like this are no longer alive. I should feel grateful but I don’t. I was hoping to see if I could find someone that’s been in a situation like this. Thank you
